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A hot day under the sun....

The whole school were waiting for the torch of 2008...

In front of Merdeka Stadium (Malaysia)...

After 3 hours......The torch finally seem to appear....

A clear view....The fire passes from 1 to another....

Once in the life time.....it's totally unbeliveable....

In the end....it's still a hot day.....

(21/4/2008)

busy day...

住家精神导师

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� 6年前，敦敦5岁的时候，看到爸妈因为工作压力大，关系有点紧张，无奈被迫地充当了一回父母的精神导师，在他认为恰当的时候，小家伙分别找我们个别谈话，，爸爸：“妈妈虽然不太漂亮但绝对聪明，你要坚信你的选择是明智的” (Mummy is not so beautiful, but she is smart. Believe me, you made a right choice. ) ；妈妈：“老爸不是十全十美的男人，但做你的丈夫已经是富富有余。”(My Dad is not perfect, but as he is more than good enough to be your husband), 他奶声奶气地教导他的父母在结婚若干年之后还要弯腰歪头从各种角度想法看到对方的优点。听幼小的孩子讲这些，弄得我们俩老很惭愧，都知趣地收敛锋芒，一般不敢在‘导师’面前率性而为了。

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那时候，每年的假期不多，我和老公在为如何安排假期这个问题上常常有分歧，有一次敦敦看我们双方的争执已经进入白热化，在饭桌上刚能露个头的敦敦出奇地冷静，对我们说：“爸爸妈妈，我知道你们都很爱自己的爸妈，所以都想让自己的爸妈看到我。你们都没错。 可是。。。” 5岁孩子的话，语重心长，掷地有声，像一面雪亮的镜子照着他爹妈自私的灵魂，我们瞬间觉得自己很渺小，真想找个地缝钻进去。

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� 6年后的今天，我让导师给他爹娘的婚姻一个动态评估，我恭敬地请他用一个5点量表： 很差，差，一般，好，完美。结果，我话音未落，‘导师’马上说，“妈妈，请去掉最后一点，因为这世上没有完美的婚姻。我对此没准备，楞了一愣，连忙照办，导师目光深邃，轻轻地说：“就目前来讲，你们的婚姻算‘好’。”

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� 我说:“能不能具体一点”。 导师说:“我以前觉得你有一点欺负老爸，但是现在我发现你们其实是刀子嘴豆腐心。比如爸爸本来跟猫不对付，还容忍我们俩疯狂地爱猫。尽管你有时发点牢骚，但你并没有阻止爸爸去做他喜欢的事情”。然后他从容地加了一句，“爸爸很爱我，你应该认识到，这是他爱你的一个重要表现。”我恍然大悟，今天导师教我，爱，包括让他（她）爱他（她）所爱的大道理。好孩子的灵魂是透明的，做大人的精神导师才真正是富富有余。

The Shanghai Spring Art Salon

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�� 昨天是上海春季艺术沙龙对大众第二天开展， 我迫不及待地拉着家里的大男人和小男人奔去世贸商城看画。我真是第一次见识这么大型的沙龙，1万多幅画让我兴奋的头晕。

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� 有一幅法国人的画吸引了我的眼球，我以为是我看走了眼，因为第一眼看去这幅黑白为主调的抽象画就是鲁迅先生‘狂人日记中’的‘狂人’，明知这位秃头的法国仁兄不可能知道鲁迅为何许人也。我还是通过翻译告诉他，他的作品很有鲁迅精神，但愿他以后读点鲁迅。因为他画得狂人确实在‘呐喊’。当我指着我最喜欢的一幅作品告诉他我的感受时，他眼前一亮，因为那张画正是他的‘主打产品’。画面是一个痛苦得走了样的人头和一双僵硬且不知所措的手, 蓝黑背景很压抑, 用刀刮出的风团把这个人在狂风面前的惶恐表现出来了. 画名叫“窘迫”（Embarrass）.� 这风是社会和自然环境的变化，这人就是人类自己。他主动告诉我，他如何处理‘风’，我告诉他，我在创作中常用画布和手指，敦敦在一旁吹风: 嘿! 老娘，您还真跟他们切磋呀，看来您还真把自己当成 ‘艺术家’了。” 我说，人家大老远的来一趟不容易，搞艺术的人靠感觉活着，有向我这样的中国百姓对他的作品有兴趣, 他就算不虚此行了。

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�� 有一对小个的法国夫妇, 丈夫是摄影家, 他那玲珑的夫人画了30多幅自画像, 可以看出她年轻时有张值得画的脸, 她把自己的头发画得很黑, 从各种角度垂下来, 看来, 在现实生活中, 她最不满意她自己的头发. 总体来说法国艺术家们的作品，主题随意，个性鲜明，注重自我情感的自由表达，色彩艳丽，想象空间大。法国人喜欢不择手段地表达自己内心，试图让观众读懂自己。画家的内心独白是, 我的想法是……, 你喜欢吗?

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� 国内艺术家们的作品题材多样，给我和敦敦留下较深印象的有一组 ‘土改斗地主’ 的夸张系列，每个贫下中农都是裸的而且淌着口水和喷着泪, 可偏偏有一张被斗地主穿了件黑绸上衣. 这个画家一定超过45岁，八成是个地主的后代或远房亲戚。显然是对这段历史的一种另类反思。不出我之所料, 这一组画卖得相当好. 国内画家是为市场作画，他们精心描绘着自己所想象的‘收藏价值’, 用技巧去迎合大众的口味。画家的内心独白是, 我觉得你应该喜欢…...

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�� '老猪思想者’ (Pig Thinker) 是这次沙龙的标志, 我们抢着跟它合影, 他用可爱的猪蹄托着肥腮帮子的样子还真够深刻的。有句老话说，要么做一个痛苦的思想家，要么做一个快乐的猪。眼前这个高大的铜塑合二为一。如果对你来说前两条路都行不通，想法修炼成‘会思考的猪’也是一条不错的出路呢！

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Subject: Happy: Current mood: happy Category: Life Time: 4:15 pm

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Ok so I am Happy & I Know Most of you Are Like, "What? OMG she's Happy, that's Surprising." But Its True, I am in Love, the persons name is Wade. Yes I Know some of you Are Saying, "But what About your Promise to Yourself?" I Can Help that I Broke my Promise to Myself, But I fell in Love & I Really Want this to work.������������������������������������������������������������������������������������ Ok, Something that I Hate About this Relationship, More Like the Family Involved, is that my Parent's Hate Wade & Dont Believe me When I Say that he's Changed. But Hey If we Can Deal With It Together I Know my Parent's will come around. It Was Like that With a Friend of Mine.������������������ Anyway Sis If your Reading this Good I am Glad. Because Now you will Finally Know what the Hell is Going on With me & my Life. I Have Stopped Cutting, But I Did Have a slip-up a month Ago & Wade Was Really Understanding About It. I Have cut down on my Drinking & well I Stop Smoking Tomorrow!!! I Cant Wait Because Its Just one More Step to Fixing my Life & making It Better. Yes I am Scared Though, I Know Its Going to be hard For me & I Also Know that I Probably Wont be Able to Deal With It Alone. I Love you all so Much, you all Mean the world to me, your my Family. Oh Sis Tell�Ed that I am out of my colors. I Left. Again Just Another Step to Bettering my Life.����������������������������������������������������������������������������������� Well I Think that's all For Now. If you Want to Read my Real Blog go to: www.inboxjournal.com/id/ask-krysta�

I haven't been on this site in like forever! It's been almost a year. I've changed a wicked lot since then. Puberty an all just kidding. I've learned how to type better and thats a good thing. Also I've cleared my life of most of my problems. I figured out exactly who I am. I'm more obsessed with acting and drawing now :P! Yay!�

hope u can see this.....^^

but maybe wun~

coz u dun even know tat i register the account of this�right?

just saw ur journal.......

only 4 days== i din online for four days..........and yet u write journal everyday==

when i online u dun write, when dun i online u write==

you write......

""Memorable time do exist...lecturing time comes together...

and dat sucks lot...==

althought u said dat i m special....

but....i feel i hav no difference with others..

mayb....i really am as normal as others...

wad do i actually hav.....

money...none....

look....zero.....

results....rubbish....

gud frens...less...

i cant afford to lose u guys anymore...

i'm not qualified to....

accept the realitly....

alvin....u r a normal person...

(17/4/2008)

emotions can b replaced by another.....

hope it will b a better 1.....

when u r happy, i'm..""

feel a bit sad.......and also angry of my self......

i dunno that i give u such a feelings........maybe i am a�jurk.......a bad�friend so that i cant give u enough care and love.........

i dunno i give u such a bad bad bad feelings..........to let u feel that u r not special.......

sorry about tat.........but u r really special for me.........

u r my friend.........not becoz of money nor look........is becoz u.......

u is u.......no matter u r�pour or ugly..........u r still u........the one who treat me�with his heart and care........the one who i treat him as the most special friend that i have never had............

For now, without u i really dunno how am i gonna to study in this class........with all the fake faces.......

and without u.......i dun even find the meaning of staying there............

i have lose everything......but u will never be the one......right?

u ask me why am i crying tat time........

yong wei tell u tat i cry becoz i listen to the song "zui jin" and i feel touch and tears just drop like tat.........

but the truth is the things i am thinking..........that song is only a wood for the fire........

actually...........tat time we are discussing about u.......about the future without u.........about the time u r going to leave us........

i really cant accept ur leaving..........but� tat is a fact.........u r going to USA and i am going to stay here.......staying in this place without u..........

i really scare to lose u..........

i am affraid that ur feelings is just like the song.........

dunno y..........

even now when i am thinking about ur leaving........tears will drop none stop..........

你最近不说话
怎么了�为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合�也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束�不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱�我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合�也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束�不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

""A simple way lead a simple life...

dat's wat i always dreamed of...

but reality is reality....life is meant to be complicated....

at least i still hav u....u will noe who r�u when u read dis....

but who am i?? to u...to every1....or even..myself.....

i hope sum1 will tell me...i'll b waitin....

a happy day begins with a simple smile....

^^readers....blogers....hav a nice day...

(18/4/2008)

I am Alvin Siow....""

i am so sorry........tat i cant help u.........

feel tat i am useless......

i am such a bitch......cant even give u anything besides of that useless meaningless�little of cares........and yet keep bodering u with my unimportant lauzy problem..........

sorry.........very sorry.........

but wat�should i do? i have no ideal.........

if only u can tell me..........

After tuition in the morning......

Went Midvalley Megamall�(a shopping complex in KL)..

Personal�secretary and little dear...

Went to Starbucks n started to on9....

A simple movie entertained us...

A light lunch with sweet desserts....

A box of sushi before we left....

Always hope for a simple n happy life.....

Without dreams...there will never be a dream come true....

(20/4/2008)

I've learn a lot from u...tQ~

Today is a really lazy day...im just chilling. My sissters arent back yet...mumm is going to work tonite so its another night spent alone�

I have come to a Decision...i'll stop calling Eddy once and for all...if he wants me he will call. If he doesn't welll to bad (I swear to God this time it's for real...i swear i wont cll Eddy Ever again-unless he calls me)

Funny thing is he can snap his fingers just like that and i'll be under his spell. God i'm sucker for love!!!!

I need to also find a JOB...I quit school last year at year 11. I wanted to be a Flight attendant. I've quickly cahnged my mind though I'd like to do bussiness. I wanna open up a little btique selling fashionable clothes for both men and women.�

I've also thought about being a travel agent(U need to have a strong academic background & lots of experience in sales)that's a dead end�I wouldn't mind being a make up artist. I love making people look gorgeous i shop for my mum� and sisters...i personally think i have a great sense of style.

My carrer choices i would saay lie within the travel and beauty department because i have a strong pssion for those two things.

So many choices wich one should it be...oh heck i'll think about this some other time